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What have you all been up to?

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 21:03:07 GMT

Oh, what has been going on?!

I have been working to schedule Hippodrome shows to go alongside the two we already have, and have been pretty successful as far as that goes. Perhaps we will go on a short tour in winter. ANDY. ANDY I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS AND I AM LETTING YOU KNOW THAT MIGHT HAPPEN OKAY? For Creative Writing I have only one story I need to write and read in class, and I have written three different ones and rewritten the stories and have not been satisfied with any of them at all. Perhaps I am just holding myself up to a higher standard now, or maybe I am just getting worse and worse at writing. Who knows. Hopefully one will pan out soon and be decent.

I might be getting a job at PHCC if they ever get back to me. That would be great. Or a job at gamestop, and that would be great too. I'm going to call them right now.

Hiring manager isn't in. Shit.

I have been spending a lot of time with Alexa and writing and doing homework things. I am getting a good grade this year and that is final.

Let's make a motherfuckin schedule.

Saturday (Tonight), October 17- Going to comedy club with Tina and Nate?

Sunday, October 18th- Going to the Bucs game with father and Crystal.

Monday, October 19th- Class in the morning, evening = ?

Tuesday, October 20th- Probably practice all day, then Hippodrome show at the crowbar in Ybor. (www.myspace.com/hippodrome for details)

Wednesday, October 21-24th/25th- Mobius trip to literary convention in Ocala. Lots of ballrooming, free eating, drinking, and general debauchery.

Monday, October 26th- Class in the morning/Borderlands release date.

Tuesday, October 27th- Probably extensive Borderlands playing.

Wednesday, October 28th- Class in morning/ ?

Thursday, October 28th- ? /Class in evening

Friday, October 29th- Mobius meeting/ ?

Saturday, October 30th- Hippodrome show at Pangea Cafe in St. Petersburg. Probably a bunch of costumes and stories and fun! Come to it!

Sunday, October 31st- MOTHERFUCKIN HALLOWEEN

Summer is officially over. It is so nice out today. Here, have this.

Game over.

Writer's Block: Airplane reading

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 02:57:54 GMT

If you're going on a long plane or road trip, what sort of reading materials do you bring along? Is it different from what you usually read? Will you watch a trashy movie or read a bad novel or magazines just to pass the time?

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I would undoubtedly bring a Dresden Files novel.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 05:52:29 GMT

You know how sometimes you see a really good movie and it's all you can think about for a little while?

Screenshot by me.

Game features: Nathan Fillion, Alan Tudyk, and Adam Baldwin (all from Firefly) as 3 of the 5 main characters. Shit yeah.

Must rescind previous post

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 23:52:38 GMT

PHCC decided on the last day to fuck me out of Music Appreciation because the financial aid woman I spoke with was inept. She said it would be fine because it was her error and it would get fixed, but nope, here I am, fucked on a day when they cant even re-add me to classes.

Futhermore, I no longer have texting due to financial reasons, and I have also been informed I have to pay for my own new pairs of glasses with the money I am getting for my pell grant- so I won't be fixing the car out in my driveway until next semester probably.

HAHAHA

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 21:52:48 GMT

Schedule finally sorted out.

Music Appreciation
Micro Apps
Sociology
Creative Writing II

Things I will knock someone the fuck out for:

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 00:53:41 GMT

-Threatening me with a weapon.

Do it again and I will do so. When someone stops acting like a human, you stop treating them like one.

Just saw video of...

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 10:32:09 GMT

The cast of Pure Pwnage hanging out at E3, and the pwnerer looks totally weird without his rag on. FPS Doug is just FPS Doug.

Also, Time Magazine did a poll to find out who is now the most trusted news anchor in America since Walter Cronkite is dead and the winner was Jon Stewart with 44% of the total votes.

Ha!

The most dangerous sport in the world

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 15:39:46 GMT

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 06:02:58 GMT

TYPING IN BIG FONT IS LIKE, MY LIFE.

my phone is back on but I have no numbers

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 09:30:49 GMT

If you havent already give me your number here.

battle for middle earth

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 07:06:02 GMT

I miss everyone.

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 08:25:24 GMT

"I had a dream the other night but I got woken up from it
and I tried to think of what it was so I could go back to sleep because the dream made me very happy
But then I couldnt think of what it was that made me happy

like I forgot how to be happy"

Yup.

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 18:50:11 GMT

Revenge tools

Sat, 23 May 2009 01:33:51 GMT

The hypocrisy being displayed by one of you is completely overwhelming me. You know who you are.

Staraflur

Wed, 13 May 2009 08:51:51 GMT

I now weigh 140 pounds. If you don't know, that's a lot for me. More than I ever have before. I'm not saying I'm fat by any stretch of the imagination- I'm just pulling away from being a twig.

I also just applied for food stamps recently, and if that goes through, I will be able to get an apartment sometime sooner than I had predicted. You know, if I do get a job. If not, then it's just less food my parents have to pay for.

Speaking of...

Things to do;
-Get a job
-Find out whether or not I am going to man up and get metal plates put in my head
-Get better grades (and sign up for the math credits I need to make up)
-Write more
-Try and draw something for once
-Practice with Hippodrome before our next show
-Get haircut

Games to get or play;
-Resident Evil 5
-Borderlands
-Call of Duty: World at War

Important upcoming dates;
-High school graduations (29th?)
-Hippodrome show (23rd)

School is out and

Sat, 02 May 2009 19:13:49 GMT

I will be using one of the three free classes we get for working on Mobius (SO glad for that, I had no idea) to retake math over the summer. It will be intense. I will hate it. But it's necessary if I want to graduate on time, and I do.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 05:39:41 GMT

And as you passed out fast on my shoulder
I imagined a child waiting so sad and still for his mom to arrive.
Did she leave you an orphan, in that big, brown leather chair?
Said “Don’t you move a muscle, kid, I’ll be back in twenty years.”
You were scared, you were lonely, but you must’ve been aware;
Life is a series of calluses, this is just another layer.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 19:05:01 GMT

My Mom didn't show up.

I love my aunt, and my cousin Dennis looks like a heavier Leonardo Dicaprio.

You saddle up and fight, your soul alight, you saw her alone, your soul alight

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 05:33:00 GMT

I'm really bothered by how fast life goes by, but I guess it's just reinforcement to remind me to keep being happy and loving as much as I can and making other people happy in the process. If the heartache of losing the people closest to you has taught me anything, it's the importance of making everyone happy while you still have the chance.

On another note, I think I'm seeing my real mother next weekend. I'm nervous. Bringing Alexa Safetyblanket Clavette with me so I don't freak out.

Love you all.

Fate gave Clipper back to God

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 07:23:33 GMT

I did some things today, but mostly, I just slept.

Alexa woke me up when she was getting ready for school, I slept all day until she got back (I had sleep paralysis again because the rain kept waking me up and breaking my sleep cycle), and then I spent the rest of the day cooking/eating/watchingmovies and being with her in general. I didn't get really much of anything done at all, but it was definitely a nice day.

Then, Andy picked me up and I went and studied for a math test we have tomorrow, but not nearly enough. I think I'm going to have to retake this class, and I don't know if my pell grant will hold out if I fail a class. Im really nervous.

"Don't forget what you learned- all you give is returned
And if life seems absurd, all you need is some laughter."

Writer's Block: Sweet Tooth

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 07:49:53 GMT

What is your favorite holiday-specific candy or treat?

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Apple cider, motherfucker.

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 20:24:22 GMT

I have been overtaken by a strong urge to go see snow right now, before I have to wait until winter again. Anyone up for a sudden journey?

Picture update.

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 04:07:09 GMT

Things are getting better. Better than they were, I mean. I still wish everyone was happy and I still need to catch up in school, but mostly everything is going better.

Although I did accidentally skip class on monday, and a Hippodrome show got cancelled because I wasn't allowed to keep my car out past 11. Buh.

My beard's progress

:D

I want to get out of Florida, and these pictures remind me of that. I need to leave. Really.

Shift in moods

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 08:15:08 GMT

I wonder what my Mom is like. I wonder how my life would have been if she hadn't failed her position. I wonder what HER life would be like if she hadn't failed her position- if she would have even been happy, if she would have loved me.
I wonder if my miscarried half sister would have had a nice life. I wonder if I would take her to school and help her with her math homework. I wonder if we would fight or be close at all, or if she would play sports or be good at dancing. She would be 12.
I wonder what life would be like if Meghan wasn't dead. I wonder if we would still be friends, and who she would be in love with right now.
I wonder what all my friends I have now would do if I had never left New York and never met them. I wonder if their lives would be exactly the same.
I wonder if Dayton will ever forgive me.
I wonder if any of the people I've been in love with will ever forget me, even for a little bit.
I wonder if my Dad will ever be happy and content.
I wonder if Elisabeth is still alive.
I wonder who Laina would have been if her life had gone differently.
I wonder which of my grandparents will die first, and what their spouse will do.
I wonder if my family enjoys their lives.
I wonder if my brother will ever find someone to love.
I wonder if my niece will always be around, and if she isnt, I wonder if she'll remember me.
I wonder if I ever have a child, if I'll be able to be everything my parents weren't. I'm scared to death I won't be.

Life makes me so sad sometimes. All these possibilities for people's lives that did or didn't happen makes me really distraught for some reason. I mean, it should make me happy, that everything that did happen happened. That everyone who is alive and happy is alive and is happy. But I can't overcome this feeling sometimes that life just isn't going the way it should. That I should be able to turn back the clocks and let things happen differently than they have.

This weekend is pretty full for me. Show on Sunday in Tampa, Saturday is Lyndsey's party, and tomorrow (today? Friday.) I have class and then someone is coming to visit from a land far far away.

Uhhh. There's more to discuss but I don't think it's the time. Not going to count my chickens before they hatch and all that. I just hope things work out in a way that doesn't make me wonder later.

This is a good entry.

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 05:28:28 GMT

So today was pretty nice. A lot of driving around hunting people down and writing. My good mood persists and although I did get a little blue today when I had to see someone destroying themself, I didnt let it get to me for too long. I am still feeling great.

Things I AM worried about;
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My math class. I am doing decent in what we're doing right now, but my test scores so far are abysmal. If I can get a good grade on the final I'll pass any way though.

Creative Writing! Poetry is harder for me now than it ever was before. I think I'm going to stop overthinking it and just let it flow like it used to, and then go back and edit it and edit it and edit it until its great. But first, I need that first draft thats so hard to get down.

Public Speaking. I skipped my speech and havent written one still. I dont know what that means. Maybe I can miss a test if Im lucky.

Psychology; I still have all my journal entries due. Theyre all very long. Im a procrastinator.
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Hippodrome is starting to record an EP soon, we have some shows coming up, and I havent been lonely in a while.

I know I dont LOOK happy in this picture, but it is the first one taken of me as the new me.

Hippodromeee

'Lexa Jean